Today, is my first impromptu post. For the last two hours, I have been in my head about who I am not.
I am not a wife. I am not athletic. I am not a Master degree holder. I am not in a relationship. I am not a bridesmaid. I am not a size four. I am not a homeowner. I am not the beloved colleague. I am not a mother. I am not a famous blogger, tree climbing cool kid, and fashion influencer (What? I really dream of these things!)
I am not so many things… I promise you haven’t just joined my pity party, unwillingly, but I did want to be vulnerable in the many thoughts and the rabbit hole I am coming up from.
A while back I wrote 100 things I am thankful for. I don’t know if I will get to 100 “I am” statements today, but it is imperative for me to publicly proclaim who I am. I wanted to call a friend and vent all the frustrations I am feeling. I wanted to phone her and say how it’s even more frustrating that the things bugging me may be months old, or situations I thought I were over. However, the spirit led me to the burning bush. In Exodus 3:14 the Lord replies to Moses to tell the people that the God speaking to him is called “ I AM WHO I AM”.
I am still wrapping my mind around what all this means, but I know some of it. God was declaring to Moses how powerful he is, he was showcasing how he is the ultimate self-existence. God was never influenced by anything, his presence is immediate. His presence is infinite. God will never be influenced by any environment or human factors like I am. His existence isn’t contingent upon anyone or anything else. He is love. He is never changing!
And I am connected to God. “A daughter of the King” as so many like to throw around. I am an heir to the throne he sits on. Insert any other Proverbs 31 type statement here. So five months ago, when the New Year hit and I was crying from a broken heart and new life transition. I picked up that “ Godfidence” would be the word for this year. Yet and still, confidence is an ongoing issue hitting me from all sides. However, I am choosing to believe, choosing to know that I am connected to the greatness of the Holy Lord above. I am connected to his energy. Have you ever thought about how he is the one who created energy?
Now I plan to type who I am. Even when doubt creeps in, or self judgement, or the urge to delete… I will not because I am CHRISTie. Yet not I, but through Christ in me! He is using me, and although this time with him isn’t fully intimate, I pray it is changing my thinking. May you renew my mind and have me think on things that are noble and good even if those things are about me!
- I am beautiful
- I am black
- I am white
- I am enough
- I am worthy
- I am important
- I am invited
- I am professional
- I am active
- I am growing
- I am wise
- I am okay
- I am loved
- I am blessed
- I am sanctified
- I am breathing
- I am a traveler
- I am passionate
- I am a singer
- I am a reflection of him
- I am regarded
- I am righteous
- I am forgiven
- I am empowered
- I am interesting
- I am admirable
- I am learning
- I am exciting
- I am desired
- I am thought of
- I am a vessel
- I am purposeful
- I am covered
- I am strong
- I am unique
- I am courageous
- I am a good friend
- I am helpful
- I am safe
- I am baptized
- I am affirmed
- I am celebrated
- I am history
- I am present
- I am the future
- I am free
- I am smart
- I am able
- I am still
- I am alive
- I am powerful
- I am a visionary
- I am light
- I am treasured
- I am honored
- I am redeemed
- I am creative
- I am a great aunt
- I am flexible
- I am renewed
- I am child-like
- I am determined
- I am humble
- I am proud
- I am a believer
- I am healed
- I am leading
- I am following
- I am cared for
- I am caring
- I am mobile
- I am real
- I am inquisitive
- I am reborn
- I am spiritual
- I am religious
- I am steadfast
- I am an influencer
- I am a witness
- I am kept
- I am fearless
- I am full
- I am here
- I am a teacher
- I am a cool kid
- I am communicative
- I am a priority
- I am a good writer
- I am rich
- I am divine
- I am deep
- I am victorious
- I am hopeful
- I am faithful
- I am cute
- I am fashionable
- I am appointed
- I am chosen
- I am ready
- I am positive
I like that you are opening the flower of your heart to grow! Knowing that God has blessed your “seed” to grow from the ground to Unimaginable heights! Stay strong my sista in your continuous transformation to being the greatest you you can be.
Also P.S 101. You are a Gift!
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Comparison is the thief of Joy. Your are anointed and appointed! Much Love
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Well done! Well written. I think I will practice making I am statements more often.
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Do it!
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